Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Gideon Ray Keilers

Well, this is the first time I’ve opened the computer in five days and I did so reluctantly (I can’t pull myself away from this baby!). But I decided it would be wrong of me to keep this face from the world for one more day, I mean really:





It dawned on me during our last morning at the hospital that our room had a television, I hadn’t even thought about turning on the TV. Every moment was tender. I considered posting pictures, but it was between spending thirty minutes writing a blog or thirty minutes staring at this miracle in my arms…Mmm, easy choice.





People told me that our life would change overnight and I believed them, but had no idea the gravity of that statement. Our lives will never be the same. We see everything with new eyes, we feel every pot hole in the road now, and he's given our heart stretch marks. The last five days have held the most sacred moments of our lives. I have never felt such a tidal wave of love for anyone or anything ever. The tears haven’t stopped. The song that echos in my mind is Aeorsmith’s “Don’t Wanna Miss a Thing.” Sometimes I wish I didn’t have to sleep.

Another thing that I have been struck by is how good God is in His giving. I now know that children (especially this newborn in my arms) are a slice of heaven that He brings to earth and allows us to enjoy for a time. This is His richest blessing.


And in case you’re wondering, my labor was amazing, so peaceful and so beautiful. And so opposite of what I imagined, coming on the tale end of a really difficult pregnancy. He ended up being smaller than was estimated and I was so grateful to push out 6 pounds 14 ounces instead of 8 pounds plus. I rested throughout most of my labor, while snow fell outside of the big windows in our room. They rotated my hips all throughout the day, which resulted in turning him from sunny side up to face down. I was so grateful he turned, my nurse and doctor were wonderful. I pushed for 40 minutes and out came our Gideon. Stephen says my new mantra is, “Get the epidural.”

I feel like Stephen and I have come out of several deep valleys and stepped onto the most amazing mountaintop yet. God so knows what He’s doing. So on that note, I’m going to return to my Baby La La Land… And you can just enjoy this cuteness…





Last two photos courtesy of Eileen Hart

15 comments:

Jessica said...

ahhhhh Crystal, he is just perfect. I've been dying to see pictures of him :) I am so glad you are enjoying and savoring this precious time :) You have no idea how badly I wish I could kiss him (and you)! What a blessing that your labor was so great.

Love that picture of him on your chest in the hospital... you both look so peaceful.

Blessed Mamma said...

He's so lovely Crystal! I'm right there with you..."I don't want to miss a thing" and yet life continues to move forward, to speed forward at times. Praying that God would help you to capture the most important moments and strengthen you in the tough times.

Christy said...

Oh I have been checking like three times a day to see if you posted. So happy for you. I mean really could you ever have imagined such a love? Such a deep, deep love? I still get weepy when I look at my lovely girls and they are almost 7 and 10. They are beautiful miracles and Gods testament to how much he loves me and how much I needed these little babes to grow and stretch me in the Lord. I think your boy is perfect! I love you sweet sister in Christ.

pelz said...

Thank God for cameras! These are so sweet, I can't wait to meet him and smell him, and kiss him. Love you Keilers family!

Jolene Grace said...

Oh Crystal, tears. He is beautiful. You are beautiful. These are precious moments indeed, and I am beyond happy that you are in such a euphoric state. I just love you. Hurry up and move to CA...I just need to live near Gideon (oh, and you. XOXOXO

Jolene Grace said...

P.S. - I'm with Jess...that pic of Gideon on your chest is AMAZING.

Kirsten Smith said...

Be still my beating heart...Gideon is perfect in every.single.way! Congratulations!

The Allen Family said...

Everyone has left such wonderful and thoughtful comments-I feel like I have nothing else to add other than I am SO excited for you and your precious little boy is just adorable!

I love you so much my sweet friend, and I can't wait to meet him, see you and spend the rest of our lives sharing stories of motherhood! :) Peace be with you and enjoy EVERY moment, the tiring ones, the tearful ones and the joyful ones! Each is so special and character building in it's own unique way. Just when you thought God couldn't show His love to you more...He goes and blesses us with the gift, the treasure of mommyhood! Drink up every second! XOXO-oh, and get your buns and his little nickels (buns) out to CA as soon as possible! I need face time with you both! :)

Shipra Panosian said...

Oh Crystal...this is some of the most tender and beautiful pieces of writing I've read from a mother in a very long time. Poetic and poignant and expressive and I can see Gideon through your eyes and feel how much you love him. Congratulations, my dear friend. Your family is growing :) Revel in every moment with your beautiful baby boy. My love to you and Stephen. Please give Gideon neck nuzzles from me.

Eileen said...

My cup runneth over...

Rhonda said...

He is FABULOUS Crystal. Congratulations to both you and Stephen. I'm praying for you this week as you get to know him and fall in love even more.
xoxo

Kathie said...

Oh, what a precious, tender charge you have been given the privilege of keeping! My heart pours out joy for you and Stephen and celebrates God's extraordinary goodness with you!

April said...

He is absolutely precious! I can hardly wait to meet him, and I totally understand why you are barely able to break away from staring at him. He is worth doting over! Thank you for sharing your emotions and thougts during this amazing time in your life. Miss you more than ever!

Amy said...

Ok, wow. He is truly gorgeous! And your sweetness just made me get all choked up. I am so so happy for you guys! Little Gideon is just beautiful and totally perfect. I'm so glad you had a peaceful labor--I think you deserve it!

Congratulations sweetie!

mare said...

Oh my God, he is so tiny and cute and beautiful!! You're one lucky mum!