Well, this is the first time I’ve opened the computer in five days and I did so reluctantly (I can’t pull myself away from this baby!). But I decided it would be wrong of me to keep this face from the world for one more day, I mean really:
It dawned on me during our last morning at the hospital that our room had a television, I hadn’t even thought about turning on the TV. Every moment was tender. I considered posting pictures, but it was between spending thirty minutes writing a blog or thirty minutes staring at this miracle in my arms…Mmm, easy choice.
People told me that our life would change overnight and I believed them, but had no idea the gravity of that statement. Our lives will never be the same. We see everything with new eyes, we feel every pot hole in the road now, and he's given our heart stretch marks. The last five days have held the most sacred moments of our lives. I have never felt such a tidal wave of love for anyone or anything ever. The tears haven’t stopped. The song that echos in my mind is Aeorsmith’s “Don’t Wanna Miss a Thing.” Sometimes I wish I didn’t have to sleep.
Another thing that I have been struck by is how good God is in His giving. I now know that children (especially this newborn in my arms) are a slice of heaven that He brings to earth and allows us to enjoy for a time. This is His richest blessing.
And in case you’re wondering, my labor was amazing, so peaceful and so beautiful. And so opposite of what I imagined, coming on the tale end of a really difficult pregnancy. He ended up being smaller than was estimated and I was so grateful to push out 6 pounds 14 ounces instead of 8 pounds plus. I rested throughout most of my labor, while snow fell outside of the big windows in our room. They rotated my hips all throughout the day, which resulted in turning him from sunny side up to face down. I was so grateful he turned, my nurse and doctor were wonderful. I pushed for 40 minutes and out came our Gideon. Stephen says my new mantra is, “Get the epidural.”
I feel like Stephen and I have come out of several deep valleys and stepped onto the most amazing mountaintop yet. God so knows what He’s doing. So on that note, I’m going to return to my Baby La La Land… And you can just enjoy this cuteness…
Last two photos courtesy of Eileen Hart