Monday, August 25, 2008

Cowboys & a Wirewalker

We had a great weekend. Watched the Cowboys barely beat the Texans on Friday. Took our friend Mike to dinner for his birthday on Saturday and then saw a great independent film called "Man on a Wire". Have you heard about this film? It's really incredible, a documentary about a frenchman who walked on a wire in between the Twin Towers (among other places). I am not one for mainstream films, but I LOVE a tasteful independent film. This film was full of story. They had old home videos and pictures from when this man was younger (he did this in the 1970s when he was in his twenties) and it was so neat to see his journey unfold. He had a handful of men who thought he was an absolute nut (which he is), but they believed in him so much, they knew how talented he was & they bought stock in his dream. It was funny listening to these men (now in their sixties) recount the story, you could tell that they felt like they had been a part of something magical, something that really left a mark in history. The only drawback to this movie was that the main character seemed to have no family or anyone he was close to at the end of his life. Which I guess is the real-life ending to a lot of stories, as opposed to the Hollywood happiness. And it's this raw quality that attracts me to independent films (so maybe it's not a drawback afterall). But it left me feeling both in awe and aware. In awe of the fact this man "did" his dream, which was the impossible (really), and aware of how the richness in my life comes from my most intimate relationships (esp. my hubby) and that is a big part of my own dream---growing old with Stephen, knowing my best friends when we're 72 & wearing purple, seeing my dad as a grandpa.... So maybe one dream's not better than the other, just different.

Okay on a lighter note, our church had a "Dodgeball" theme yesterday in effort to promote small groups, so that's why we sported sweatbands at church :).

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Cardboard Testimonies

This video really touched me today, here's the LINK. Such a great reminder of how unearned God's grace is in my life. And also the fact that his grace often comes through our pain. I've wrestled with this one. Why does God allow such intense suffering in such undeserving lives?

This verse struck me this weekend as I wrote a friend who lost her mother suddenly to cancer last August and now her brother to a car accident this past weekend. I've read 1 Corinthians 1:3-5 a bunch of times, but somehow missed verse 5. As sufferings overflow, Christ's comfort overflows. Wow. This doesn't mean that loss doesn't leave a void or wound us deeply in some way, but it does mean that Christ's comfort will overflow. It almost seems to me that suffering is a privilege because it strips us of what's unimportant and allows us to experience more of Christ, more of his comforting nature.

This past year there was a family who experienced God's comfort in a way that impacted me forever, as they lost their 8 year old daughter to leukemia. This family doesn't know me, but their son was in the same class as Haley, so I kept up with their journey through her (and other friends who know them). I went to the memorial service and the mother's peace struck me, it was unnatural, clearly a gift from God. What also touched me was what how the Pastor responded to the father's question, "Tell me this is not okay?" to which the Pastor responded, “This is not O.K. and you will always walk with a limp”.

This side of heaven suffering may leave us with a limp, but I know that on the other side of heaven it will make perfect sense.

Monday, August 11, 2008

Jerry's 63rd Birthday

Stephen's dad turned 63 last week and we celebrated his birthday Saturday. In that he's a Vietnam Veteran, he enjoys seeing old war aircraft's and he knows & LOVES the history behind them all. We took him to the Cavinoff Flight Museum to go on his very own flight around the Dallas area in a plane called the "Stearman" originally built in the late 1920's. He was so so happy, it was so much fun to see him so excited. We then came home and we made his favorite meal...chili cheese hot dogs with sauerkraut. Yes my friends you heard me right, his favorite meal must involve hot dogs, remember Father's Day. Easy enough for me huh :)? Anyway, we had such a great time and I'm so glad we were able to spend an entire day with the folks, it's a gift to live so close :).

Friday, August 8, 2008

The Notion of Divine Control

by Oswald Chambers

"How much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask Him?" Matthew 7:11

Jesus is laying down rules of conduct for those who have His spirit. By the simple argument of these verses He urges us to keep our minds filled with the notion of God's control behind everything, which means that the disciple must maintain an attitude of perfect trust ad a eagerness to ask and to seek.

Notion your mind with the idea that God is there. If once the mind is notioned along that line, then when you are in difficultes it is as easy as breathing to remember--Why, my Father knows all about it! It is not an effort, it comes naturally when perplexities press. Before, you used to go to this person and that, but now the notion of the Divine control is forming so powerfully in you that you go to God about it. Jesus is laying down the rules of conduct for those who have His Spirit, and it works on this principle--God is my Father, He loves me, I shall never think of anything He will forget, why should I worry?

There are times, says Jesus, when God cannot lift the darkness from you, but trust Him. God will appear like an unkind friend, but He is not; He will appear like an unnatural Father, but He is not; He will appear like an unjust judge, but He is not. Keep the notion of the mind of God behind all things strong and growing. Nothing happens in any particular unless God's will is behind it, therefore you can rest in perfect confidence in Him. Prayer is not only asking, but an attitude of mind which produces the atmosphere in which asking is perfectly natural. "Ask and it shall be given to you."

***I think I've read this nine times this morning. I think I'll read it nine more.

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Eileen is a diva

Okay, so last time I attempted to edit one of Eileen's pictures by converting it to black and white. Big mistake. My version was gray and gross (so sorry EileenE), but she graciously recused me (and now you know who's the one with 25+ yrs experience). Here's her fabulously updated version:

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Tori's wedding & stuff

Uh so much to tell since the last entry, so I'll just hit a few points for now:

My close close friend Anna (she's the one next to me in the top pic, long brown hair) has been here in Dallas for the past two weeks and I have been SO happy to have my kindred spirited friend here, staying with us (most of time). Since last July all of my closest Dallas friends moved away. Jill to Malaysia, Anna to Hungary, Mandy to South Carolina, Mary Ashley to NYC, and the year before that... Julie to NYC and Tori to St. Louis. I have felt like I've had to start all over again. In some ways it has been good, in that I've been learning how to be a wife, enjoying focused time with Stephen, & also relying more on God to meet my needs, but in other ways it has been very sad. There's no replacement for a good girlfriend. Anna being here has re-activated different parts of who I am. Does that ring true with anyone? I used to think that the saying "A friend knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you forget the words" was super cheesy, but with Anna being here I feel like parts of me are alive again, I'm reminded of my "song" if you will :). And gosh darn it I don't want her to leave!!! She leaves tomorrow morning. No good.

Tori's wedding was this weekend. And we were busy from sun up to sun down most of last week (but it was so much fun to see her and spend time with her and her man). But it turns out I now have streap throat. Ick. I often internalize stress and don't listen to my body and I'm now feeling the results. Eileen and Bryan were the photographers at Tori's wedding and they did a fabulous job! I can't wait to see all of them :)!!! The above pics are a few that Eileen sent me today (she also got some of me and Stephen that I'll post later, whenever I get my hands on them:)...